well, thanks travel...but I had a setback today again...the rollercoaster continues. I think i jumped the gun which is unfortunate for such a good weekend of GAL. H brought the girls home and we ML again. It made me very emotional...and I started crying. H was emotional too it seemed, but he only asked if I was ok...I didn't initiate any convo at that time. Later he texted to say sorry that he upset me. I told him that it was my fault too and that I couldn't ML to him anymore and asked him not to try. He said OK. Then I asked him simply if he was happy. I don't know why I did this, I have been doing so well at not initiating any R talk. He relpied "I don't know" and that was it. And I just replied with "I understand." I don't know if I should have told him we couldn't ML anymore...it is just that I find it impossible to resist and I don't want to let him cake eat. I feel like I really messed up. This is so confusing. He was really starting to come around. Calling me more, inviting me places, lingering around the house, and offering to do things for me. Maybe this is good to have set up this boundary...I hope. I just wish i could have done it in a less of a backslid-ish sorta way!!! UGH!
