W called twice today. answered the first time around 2. she said she wasn't coming today which i had already told mysef that i'm 100% sure she wouldn't anyway so when she told me, i was prepared. I said ok really chipper like and she said she wanted to come over Tues. I said sure and said i had to get back to what i was doing.
she tried calling again 2.5 hours later and didn't answer. waited 8 mins, i had been either doing right away or not all before, and texted "hey." SHE ASKED ME if she could call! lol i txtd back yeah. she called and asked if there was anything else i wanted her to bring on tues when she comes i said nope i got everything I need here.
she asked what i was doing today and i said i'm going out to dinner later. she said that's cool, and then asked why i sound like i was in such a good mood lately and i said i've just been happy the last couple days. she said that's good, in an annoyed voice and said to have fun on my dinner date. i told her i NEVER said it was a date. she mumbled something and i said i'm gonna let her go. i said goodbye and hung up. i don't think she even said anything before or after i was gonna let her go just hung up.
PDT and anyone else, where did i go wrong besides actually taking the time to answer? I can handle making myself happy and being in a good mood without her. i still have anxiety when i talk to her because i'm worried i'm not doing something right. my mind is in a haze when i'm talking to her. we only talked for 2 mins the 2nd time as i'm trying to limit all contact with her and when i do talk to her I want it on my terms..
me = happy. me talking to her = "nervous". how do i remedy this? back to the darkness
