Trying to stay strong

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Ok, so I've not had much time to post or read up on others so hope all is going ok.

I guess its a somewhat good sign that I have been busy.

I had a busy week last week with work and deadlines and then had a busy weekend too. I went to view some apartments with a friend sat morning, still looking, no pressure just yet tho. Then I spent the afternoon cleaning, running errands, food shopping and catching up from last week! Then I had just enough time to get myself ready for a night out with the girls. I went with 2 of my friends and then 4 others that I had met only once before, so making new friends there. which is good bc they are super nice and we had a fun time. I had some house guests over night and then an easy going sunday morning making breakfast and chatting with them.

Today I also got to get a coffee with my friend and then I spent the rest of the night working on my essay for thursday. I'm sure I'll get it done, just is a bit stressful!! But I am happy with how much work I got done tonight.

So tomorrow should be a slowish day at work, so I'll have time to continue with my essay writing between my appointments. ok so only 4 more days of this....

Also, have now arranged to see H on tuesday since we couldn't both do any other days this week. Everytime he tries to arrange something it seems like its all a big game to him, with power/control over him calling the shots...maybe I am just taking it wrong, I don't know. He always has to 'get back to me' and check if he's free, doesn't even seem to know his own schedule, or doesn't want to agree to anything too fast. I asked what time and where to meet. then he replied his phone is about to die so he'll text me over the weekend about it.(but hasn't) Surely if he could sent that msg he could of just sent a time, takes the same amount of battery... ughhh.

Anyway none of that has stopped me from having a good weekend, so that is an improvement.

One last question....It is H's bday on friday. Which is upsetting bc bday's were always special for us both. But I don't know whether I should get him something or not?? I have not mentioned it and neither has he, maybe he thinks I forgot, although I'm sure he knows that would never happen, remembering dates and such has always been my thing.

So what to do?