Yesterday I cleaned the house, took my dog for a walk in the mountains, and in the evening went to a friend's barbeque and had a good time.
But I'm having a difficult time accepting the reality I am not sharing my life with H and stepson anymore and that I am alone. I am around people throughout the day while I GAL and keep busy and active. But I often find myself wallowing in my self-pity when I'm alone in the house. I can be watching a movie, have my favorite music turned up, be cleaning, cooking etc and I still become self-absorbed with what I'm missing, what I don't have. It's not that I don't enjoy my own company, I just prefer to share my life with someone. I miss my H. more everyday.
Even if just for today, I wish I didn't miss him anymore.
Me 40 WAH 43 T 4 years M 9 1/2 months stepson 9 H left 4 weeks ago No D filed
