I found the most beautiful apartment. It was situated on two man mad elakes and the interior was just lovely. And discovered the rent was much more than I could handle!!!

So back to the drawing board. I made an appointment with a real estate agent to find a rental within my price range, but event hat is really so much different than I am ued to. Inying to deal with his advice. But he does keep throwing my poor decision making in he past, as if I didnt alredy know it. In the meantime, I am taking crap from my father, who thilk to him. I have to find a constructive way to tell him that I know I have not made the best decisions, but the continuousve. uderstand his perspectinks I am perpetually fifteen. I know he means well, so I am trying to understand his perspective.
But his reminders only make me feel worse and more like a failure.

Interviews went well, so I dont think I am going to have a problem finding a job. I go back out in about 10 days, so I am hoping everything will be firmed up at that point. This is the best move for me, but I am still scared and hope that I can start over without too many problems!

Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..