Trying to detach from the madness!

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Thanks Kass! I am tired. Its been a long weekend.

It was nice to see his family seeing what he does although they know what he does but still after some time will make an excuse for him. One SIL who I get along with well told me that they knew I turned him in for his DUI...some family members say I did the right thing some say it was a betrayl. He gravitates towards those who think I betrayed him. She said she told the family I was the only one with guts enough to try and stop him. Everyone else complained about his drinking and driving but did nothing.

So he was texting early evening asking if I was ok and why I was upset. I said I was fine. Then he went into do I love him? I know better than to argue with a drunk but did anyway. I said I did, but I wanted a man who can live by his vows. He said I needed to live by them too and did I love him? I was putting baby to bed after that and I must not have responded quickly enough. He sent "You don't love me. I am not your caliber of a man. Take care of our girl." I just left it at that and never heard from him again.

Thinking about yesterday...watching at the church I do love that man. He was sober and I could tell he was touched. Later at the reception...no. That made my stomach turn again seeing him that way. I haven't really seen exh that way in almost a year! Obviously he doesn't come around that way to see baby. I felt pity and sadness for him. He is on such a sucky road that is going straight to hell.

I will do whatever I have to do to protect baby.