OK...

I hoped I would never have to write this but I will be plain about it.

My W has flown to England this weekend to visit OM purportedly to "unburden her guilt" and to "sort herself out emotionally".

She has been making noises about it for two weeks and has asked for my "consent" but I told her it wasn't something I could agree to. He had sent wife an email saying that he has a new girlfriend now and that it's "over" and this has sent her into a jealous rage. Since I didn't agree she flew anyway - 24 hours, 10,000 miles.

She has only taken a small bag and left me notes making reference to coming back today and upcoming events for the weeks ahead.

She has taken her wedding rings which she has been wearing for the last six months.

The fact that she is 12 weeks pregnant with my child does not make a blind bit of difference - in fact I have also intercepted emails from her to OM saying she's considering termination - she doesn't want to kill a baby but isn't happy about this pregnancy - wishes it was OM's. She doesn't want to cause OM any more pain and have him raise another man's child but that he might grow to love the child.

This is sick but I have to say I am not surprised. I witnessed the evil she was capable of stooping to last year.

Curiously, this last week she has been saying "we need to fix this and fall in love again, we have a baby on the way" and then this last Tuesday she said "I love you and I always have" to me for the first time in 18 months.

She doesn't - obviously.

I know I have to get out now. This marriage should not be saved.

I cannot believe that this has become normal - I have lived it for 18 months.



Me: 46
W: 46
T: 23
M: 20
DS12
DD11
DS5

W left: 01/28/08
Discovered OM: 02/26/08
W back for 9 days: 04/08
W returned 05/21/08
EA/PA - 01/08-07/09
W's MLC 2008-2014 (realised this much later)