PM Thread #6 - New Life for Number1 - Me

[PositivelyMommy]

Hey 25yrsMLC,

As you can probably tell, I am one to go out and ask for advice if I have problems. So when you said to go and find best friends and 'professional mentors' that was what was on my mind as well. So I called up an acquaintance and asked her over to talk abt the job. I don't know her very well but she is a professional in the new field that I am interested in and it was very enlightening. I told her about my personal stuff as well and she put her two cents worth.

It's amazing, I think, that there are wonderful women/friends out there that will give you the support you need, all you have to do is open up and ask and people will flock to you. This has been proven to me again and again this year and I have not been disappointed yet. I know God is looking after me by putting all these new people in my life to 'replace' my lost R.

Anyway, she had a good idea, maybe we can share the job, which I LOVE. Reason being, I can learn so much from her, I don't think I can do this job on my own and if I had a bit of training, and if she can train me, that would be EXCELLENT! The money part, I don't mind so much, I want the training and the experience to go in the resume. I'd rather learn from a professional than bumble along on my own and not doing a very good job.

So I will hear from her in the next day or so and see if she is serious then we will probably approach the company with our job sharing plan, I hope they go for it.

So you see, you were right and all the advice I have gotten has been fab.

Even if this job doesn't turn out, I have found another strong friend in the process so I would have gained in the end.

I really feel blessed at the moment and feel life is wonderful.

Now, the only part is the M. I am beginning to feel that in order to start out with a clean plate, I really need to file for D.

I think it's the fact that H told me that he won't be coming back. I think that killed off the last bit of hope in my heart and finally I am free to contemplate REAL life without him.

These few weeks I feel happy now because I have not felt 'torn'. Don't feel the need to 'try so hard' and to 'be perfect'. Now that we don't even have family days don't even bother me. In fact, I feel that the less I see him, the calmer I am.

Detachment.