i had a sort of epiphany this morning before bed and then today when i woke up. I love my W and i will be the best man i can be for her, whether she is here with me or not. I will show her love by taking care of myself, the house, my life... even if that means she never comes back.
It's been over two days since i've heard from her. she's supposed to come tomorrow and pick up her stuff she left behind. at first i was apprehensive/nervous about seeing her. Now, i give her in reality about a 3% chance of even showing up, but if she doesn't, it just gives me more time to work on me. I'm confident she will call me again someday or stop over. The longer it takes, i'll be in a better sitch mentally and physically when she finally does.
i know she loves me and still cares. she just wasn't happy in the sitch she was in at the time.
Thank you Lord for giving me strength when i need it most.
