Divorce looming #14

[K4D]

I guess at the moment these are what come to mind.

Goal 1: To have found a happy fulfilling life
Goal 2: To be the best father I can be towards my kids
Goal 3: To have my career on track

and an added bonus...

Goal 4: To be in good physical shape

I will make sure I tell the counselor everything

I get to spend 3 and a half hours with D11 today. That will be nice.

I had dinner with W and kids last night. I filled up W's tire so she could drive. She had a tire going flat and needs to get the tires replaced.

I helped pay for D11 to go to church camp. I think that is important.

I know I will get the usual 2x4 for this. But it bothers me that each time I am with W she treats me like an aquaintance. We have been together for 12 years and I am treated like an aquaintance. I never get a hug from her or anything when I see her.

It really bothered me last night. I thought a while on it. You all keep asking me why I don't let her go. There are a lot of reasons. But honestly one is I don't believe in remarriage except in the case of a S dying. I made a lifetime vow and committment to her. And I feel like I have to honor that no matter what. I honestly don't feel like I can be with someone else.

W is now asking me if I can help her out with transportation today while she gets her van fixed. I know I should say no. But it is my job to take care of her regardless of circumstances.

Kevin