he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

i should be used to not having him in bed, this october will be 3 years since life was normal,

but having him back in between is what starts me back at zero.

after a few weeks, i slowly adjust again, but either way, i miss him, especially at night.

i slept so well when he was back.

but its comforting to know he isnt so sold on leaving again.

i wish he could see what everyone else sees. i wish he was strong enough to deal with his emotions, deal with what he has done and be willing to truly work through it.

i cant make him but i do hope and pray he finally reaches that point.