Doing good. Just got off work and will be off 4 days... hallelujah! I'm in a great mood.
I admire your devotion and I know the strength it takes to stand. Didn't some dead guy say.. "It's better to have loved, then to have been loved"? I believe that ability makes us good people.
Anyway, no matter how your situation unfolds, it's in your power to re-direct your life in a manner that fulfills you. Rather it be a new relationship with your W, with a new partner, or by yourself.
"It is curious that physical courage should be so common in the world and moral courage so rare." -Mark Twain