Stepping out and Stepping UP!

[cagzmom]

the only place I can come and vent and not be known..

ugh..boo hoo and yeah all that jazz.

he has ANOTHER new girlfriend. How do i know? cause we get into conversations.. i am trying to be "all ok with everything.." and i ask... and he shares...

bimbo is officially done. she called asked for money and begged to see him.. he said no more. So you know -- it took almost 2 years for it to end.. since the original break-up where her mom moved her out he has had numerous women and i think 4 possible "girlfriends.." and now here we are again...

he knew i was going on a date tonight - and tomorrow -- i looked dang good tongiht..he was even taken back a little when he walked in to get d12. then low and behold middate night i got a text.. he has a fever and is sick.. just wanted to give me a "heads up".... Whatever. I called d12 on my way home from teh date.. a few hours after the text... didn't respond to his.... no need.. i was on a date and everyone is ok.

i am just frustrated.... woman after woman .. try after try.. but he doesnt even want me??!!! and does he even wonder? does he even look at me that way at all??!! i have to say no...i dont think he seess me with those eyes at all.... i am nothing.