You love your H more than any other man...Why would you want to leave someone you love so much? You can try to escape your problems and leave your marriage before it starts. You will find that your problems will continue to follow you because they are with you.
You have been burden down with stress, working hard and problems you can't deal with in your own strength. Your H can't lift your pain and burden off of you. Be patient with him my friend. He is going through E issue like you.
Jesus said in Mt.11:28 Come unto me, all you that labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
"Suffering is painful but makes you a stronger person".
