Hang in there girl...I am on your emotional wavelength, for sure!
Fell of the wagon with the goals the past few days...been busy with activities and seeing some family and friends which has been good but for some reason did not override the feelings of loneliness and "missing him" that have come knocking on my door again. It almost seems like, if I do something new, fun, or something I am proud of, I feel it, but immediately think, wish I could tell him about it, share this. Its not that I need his approval or validation, I just liked sharing things like that with him, and valued his perspective, the conversations we would have.
One thing, regarding how famiy can incrase likelihood of divorce...I don't think you can worry too much about that because 1) we can't control it, 2) you never know what they are saying...they might tell him is being ridiculous and throwing away marriage for short sighted reasons 3) you never know how these WAHs will react to things...if the family encourages or discourages the divoce, they sometimes like to do the opposite of anything people tell them makes sense! So really, I think that family influence, while a concern, is just one other up in the air variable in all this.
I don't know. Trying to work up some positive perspective for you since I can't seem to do it for myself today :-)
Me 30 H 33 together:10 years married:5 years Separated: 1/23/09 living apart 5 mos and counting "when you reach the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on"-FDR
