I have been reading this BB for about a year now, never posting, but doing enormous amounts of reading. Last night I took the plunge and replied to Trusting on another Post. Maybe someday soon I will tell about my sitch on the Newcomers forum.
I felt compelled today to tell you that I have been keeping up with you for a while. AND, I admire the strength you have, and the willingness to get back up and regroup whenever you are in those really low times.
It sounds like you have a great agenda for the day, and anything left over can just be added to the top of tomorrows list. Now I need to go make my own list!
I wanted to also tell you that I started listening to a Christian Radio station. If anybody would have told me a year ago that this would have been my preference in music, I would have told them they were crazy. BUT, I have found so much strength in the songs that they play. Many nights I go to sleep with the radio on, and wake to it in the morning. Those are the nights I sleep most peacefully. I have bought many Christian CD's now, and just picked up Mandisa's new one. It is so good!
I have a very good friend that I go to whenever I'm at those very low times. You know those times when you see nothing getting better, nothing changing. When you are continuing to treat your H with unconditional love and he continues to treat you like somebody he could care less about. She always reminds me to keep my focus where it needs to be, and not on the situation. Oh, but it is so hard isn't it?! Remember FAITH, not fear, will get us where we want to be. I'm sure you've heard that it's GOD's timing not ours. The patience part is what I'm really having trouble with.
I will remember to keep you, and your dad in my prayers.
