What stand out is that I think I have more to lose than he does...financially, emotionally, logistically etc. That scares me.
As long as you are afraid you have no control over yourself. What is it Smiley talks about the Spiers Paradigm - how does that go again?
You are your own leverage: Positional advantage; power to act effectively To improve or enhance the ability to influence people or events the quality of having a superior or more favorable position bargaining chip
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
