Seperated

[LitlHopeAlwys]

So I called the W last night - I was not having one of the best nights anyway so I figured it can't hurt to try and speak with her. We only spoke shortly - she said she was reading - wouldn't give me book name. We really didn't speak about anything other then how our days went.

She called me again this morning at work - we spoke for about 15 minutes - again she started with how my father acts and talks towards our son when she drops off/picks him up from there house daily.

She told me a story of how this morning, they brought the paper in from the mailbox, and my father asks S3 if we got it wet. No thank you or any other encouraging words - not surprising knowing my father. Then the W tells me a story of how S3 says he loves Grandma but not Grandpa - no surprise here. I told my W to just ignore it and I'll have a talk with them about it - last time I tried talking to father, it ended with me telling him to stay in Florida year round.

Hmmm.. I think she might be psychic or her ears ringing - she called again while I was typing this. Now she wants to know if its ok for her to schedule to have blood drawn - allergy testing - on S3 on a Saturday when I have him. She wanted to know if its ok with me and I'll meet W there. I agreed to it.

I've gotten a little used to the roller coaster of emotions, and I know to continue to work on me - that no matter what it will make me a better person. I know somewhere in here there are positives to her actions, I just have to look deep to see them.

Even though we don't talk about R, I just have this uneasy feeling in my gut that no matter what I change, who I become that she just doesn't care and will not want to see it.

I have to continue to work on PMA, myself, and as act as if attitude. I see that changes in me have a ripple affect on everything around me - and hope it has enough of an effect to save M.