I'm not sure. I like how you keep thinking of ideas that would never cross my mind!
I'm not sure I could see him ever without any expectations, to be completely honest. My reasons are to have a closer connection and stronger friendship and question mark etcetera. If last night had been more successful I wouldn't feel the need to see him now at all.
I talked with a RL friend who said if I felt any resistance from him last night just to let things lie. She also reminded me not to take his behavior personally whatsoever, even though it's really hard not to. Letting things go seems to work, so even though I feel disappointed, I think that's what I'm going to do, unless someone comes up with a brilliant plan on how to see him again without any pressure.
Also, I am already going home to my family a day later than expected, and I feel lame that I stuck around here just to have an awkward hang out with B, so I think if I stuck around here longer just in hopes of having a hang out with B, I would feel even more lame.
Julia, thank you as always for your thoughtful advice and questions... love T
