After the second musical act finished his band members gathered to leave and one of the band member's friends introduced herself to me and we talked for a while, I was totally charming. We left the venue and stood in the middle of the street for a while while one band member tried to persuade everyone to go to another bar to hang out for a while but no one really wanted to go. I introduced myself to everyone I hadn't already introduced myself to and was totally social... the group finally broke up and I told B (since it was obvious he didn't want to hang out with anyone) which train I need to catch, and then we asked a bandmate for directions to the station. He asked if both of us would be taking that train and B said, "I won't be catching that train." The bandmates walked away and we said a quick goodbye, I told him how great it had been to finally see his band, and he told me he really appreciated me coming. He said he'd love to hear my Dad perform (WTF? My Dad doesn't even know I've spoken to B since 2007) and I joked that if B was ever in VA (which he will be next week) that he should look up my Dad's myspace page. There were two quick hugs and then I said "goodnight" and walked away.

At the time I was pretty much too tired to feel anything except a general nervousness, but now I feel so sad and frustrated and discouraged. On reflection he really wasn't that nice to me-- like not introducing me to anyone, and leaving me by myself at my table. I'm really not sure what I could have done differently to change the tone of the evening. I didn't want to join him at the bar if he was trying to get away from me. If I lived here, as soon as I felt awkward I would have just LEFT. But because I don't and I might not see him again until.... august? september? I feel like these opportunities are so limited that even when I feel awkward I need to wait around and see what happens.

I saw a friend for breakfast and processed all of this with him and his only suggestion was that I stay here for another week so I could have another chance to see B and have it not be weird. however, I'm flying out of VA on wednesday and my family thought I would be home yesterday, I don't want them to feel any more left out than they already do.

It would be great to see B one last time before I leave later today, but I don't know how to ask him to see me without totally putting him on the spot. *****ANY THOUGHTS?********