A new thread, a new outlook.....

[Can it work]

I can see what you mean now PM. I'm sure you know as well as most on here though that it's so hard to retain focus when you're in an emotional situation such as I was last night. I'll hold my hands up and say I messed it up big time. As soon as she began by being in a bad mood and being snappy with me all plans went out the window and I guess I panicked and did indeed come across as all those things you've said. Still, I don't think I've slipped this much in a while so I couldn't have been doing too badly up until then.

On a more positive note, I've spoken to her this morning and it was fairly amicable but not entirely friendly. At least she'll still talk to me. I think you're right now that I just have to back off for a bit again. The whole situation last night has set me back quite a ways though. I'm just going to need to deal with that though and start over.

I did make one HUGE mistake last night too and I'm not proud of it. I told her that it was her who chose this path when she left! I'll pause for a moment to give you all time to cringe! Anyway, her comeback was a bit confusing and surprising. She told me that it wasn't her choice at all and we'd made a mutual decision to end this marriage!?!?! WTF!! I was a typical LBS at the start and begged her to stay for all kinds of reasons. I know WAS re-invent the past but seriously, is she delusional?!? Luckily, I got my senses about me enough not to pursue the subject any more but in a way, it may have given me some kind of strange hope. It's hard to explain but she was definitely trying to convince me that she never chose to leave. Almost as if she would've stayed if we hadn't made this "mutual" decision. Does that make sense or am I the one being delusional now?

I am feeling a lot better today though and fully intend to have a good weekend with Wee Man. He'll get to see all his cousins and I'll get to see my family. There's going to be no time for moping around feeling sorry for myself. I'm doubtful that I'll manage to get back on here until Monday though but I will try if I get the chance. I'm fairly sure this thread is going to lock soon too so I'll be needing to start a new one.

Anyhoo, I'd better go and start packing. I'll pop back on later today before I head off.

Kev