H has gone on a trip and has not contacted me since he left even to say that he has arrived safely. This was very disappointing since we spent a lot of quality time together in the two days before he left. We laughed, talked a lot (no R talk), looked at each other (really looked),on one occasion we laughed and joked for about an entire hour. Then he is gone and NOTHING. I suspected this would happen. But he knows by now that I will not contact him, so we will see.
They always pull away after you get close.
This made me a bit despondent. It is so hard to understand this behaviour and although I say I will not try to analyse it I LET myself fall back into the trap.
So today I was feeling kind of down and I went to run an errand he had asked me to do for him. As I was entering the store, I had made up my mind to pay the minimum payment on the bill because I was asking myself why should I be nice to him but then I felt like God was saying to me to be kind and make double the payment. I made more than double the payment and as I was leaving the store an employee got up from her deak and picked up a book ,on the cover of which was written GOD IS IN CONTROL. I know some will scoff at this but it was as timely a reminder from God as I have ever seen. Yesterday afternoon I entered a bookstore and the title of the first book I saw jumped out at me in bold blue letters NEVER GIVE UP.
I know I have seen others post that similar things happen to them and as I always say, you are free to believe or not believe. But I thought those two things were awesome!!
