I am around, trying to transition to piecing post to get support because I am feeling scared lately - everything is ok - it is just the thoughts about the past behavior that is haunting me.
Seems hard to engage people lately, not sure what to do, any suggestions? Is it my sitch that scares people off? I get the feeling sometimes that some people don't support my M just like in real life. A few of you hung in there with me and saved my life. Most people's response when I started was negative.
Had a long talk with S last night alone, was a good one. In reference to my M, he said he can see why people might think it is not a good idea to reconcile, but on the other hand, he wonders what do we learn if we always run away from R and the imperfections of others? He is more in favor of forgiveness and understanding and trying to build something better. Couldn't argue that one. Made me proud.
