Being appreciative is fine but if baffles me why you dont do anything more than just say thanks or ok.
Why are you so resistant to building a life for yourself, obtaining the tools to do so and putting your former M and W behind you for good?
If you are going to take a look at the link then why not commit to actually trying the technique for 24 hours? Why not try and commit to *something* for 24 hours that is just for you and your own self growth and improvement?
I have to say I am really floored you mentioned your anniversary considering the M you had is over.
Yes, the D papers got dismissed but your W is still with other men. So, who cares? A paper is a paper and actions speak way louder than a divorce paper. As long as there is any form of an OM in the picture (be it casual, or a full blown PA/EA) nothing will ever change between the two of you and at this juncture your W is not ready to give up her freedom and any and all OM's. But she is in a good spot because she gets the fun/romance/sex of OM's and she gets the stability of knowing you will wait around and pine for her. Not a bad deal on her end of things, no?
I hope you learn to manage your expectations (in fact, at this point you should have ZERO expectations) and I hope you put your W, her requests and all thoughts of her on the very back burner for a very long time. That is why you cant grow, she is in your way and IMO she doesnt want to be in your way AT ALL but you like her there. Even though its a crappy situation it makes you feel safe. And it shouldnt.
