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I want to re-unite my family. I want my W back.


Those are both honorable goals. Are you willing to do what ever it takes with the understanding that you might not reach your goals? Both of those goals require you to do the work.
Start with the end in mind then come up with steps to get you there.
The illusion was based on expectations you had. The Stockdale Paradox helped me deal with this. You only control you thoughts, feelings and acions. You can handle it.
Cheers


M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12
Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.