I hate my H

[Done in VA]

Then follow the lead. HE is lashing out at the MC because he feels he HAS to. Actually, it has become a stage for him to express his anger. No R talk started by you is for a reason.

I agree with you on this point, but wonder why has it become a stage for him to express his anger? The previous MC session went well. He took some baby steps & did not act angry. In the session before that one, he was lashing out as well. It's hit or miss. Sometimes I wonder if we should even go to MC.

Still not answering me....WHICH ONE DO YOU WANT TO BE ???

I want to be the loyal, honest, compassion, tender person and
everything on the list. I am deleting the opinionated, inflexible, selfish parts.

How are your actions different enforcing them ?

I'm trying to look at things from other people's points of view.
I am trying to realize that I am not always right.
I am trying to listen better and not make assumptions.
I am trying to put other people's needs above my own.
I am choosing to have a joyful spirit and see the beauty in all things. Starting with my family - trying to just enjoy each day as it comes.
I am trying to be patient with people and realize things don't have to get done my way and in my time.
I think before I speak.
I try not to say anything just to say it, only if there is a benefit (example no reason to criticize).
I am trying to stop worrying about the little things & just let things roll off my back.
I am careful with my tone & thinking about whether or not there is any underlying meaning to why I am telling someone something (H says I give him guilt trips)