he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

saw my husband briefly, just to share with him reality for a few minutes....lol

my plan of the day is this:

pull back as much as i can, minimal contact - let him do the work

try to protect what i can, handle what i can, financially

try to plan ahead to the best of my ability

keep my son happy and entertained, plan things for us for the weekend.

im going to try and do all of this without moving forward legally.

maybe in time i will adjust and accept the idea of it, right now, im not there

and if he does move forward, i know i will be ok. the truth is, it could only help me, im just not ready