Yeah, I'm struggling with going to the mountains with her. I was talking to the pastor today and he brought it up the same way: an anniversary is the celebration of x number of years being together. Doesn't make a lot of sense to celebrate when we're separated.
However, I've decided I'm sticking with this until at the 6mo is up. Not that I have to do everything she wants, but I sticking with this means I'm going to be able to walk away not wondering if during that time I did everything I could to make this marriage work.
To be honest, when I saw her last night she worried me. She is very depressed. I haven't been able to answer the question yet: was she depressed first and then left? or was the leaving what caused her depression? Or both?
Basically, I see severe clinical depression. I think she does as well.
That leaves me in a place where I don't know that I can walk away without feeling like I left her when she needed me most. I also cannot be a doormat. And I have things for me that I must do. Tough choices, but I have more to think of regarding going away with her for a few days.
The pastor also brought it up that I shouldn't go if I it was to fight or try to fix things. If we can't go and have a good time, then might be better not to go.
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
