Well, my evening was nice. I met 2 or 3 people who were so nice that I know I will be knowing them well. It was difficult though as most of the people there came with their families/H..
But, hey......I think I will get along well with this group of people and it will be nice to be surrounded by friendly co-workers. They felt like a big happy family.
I have the day today to just organize and be at home....I guess I will just try to get as much done as possible. I woke up today and made myself a cup of coffee....I haven't done that in a long time. I really love having that morning cup! I have done 2 loads of laundry and well....am just sitting now watching some TV.
I feel a bit on the down side today. Not for any particular reason...but, just.......feeling not as optimistic as yesterday. But, I will perservere! Really, I have lots to do. I will concentrate on that.
Sometimes that feeling of loneliness really can be over-powering. Its so much about ur state of mind...bc how am I more alone today than yesterday or for that matter the last few months? I am no more alone today than any other day. I really have to remember that.
I think it was so nice to see people having full lives....it made me feel my loss even more.....I can't believe right when we are on the verge of having full, stable lives, H is doing a 180!
But, that is my reality. I really have to be my own best friend today. That is the goal!
