I understand the loss of trust all to well. I still have doubts about my W and the things she may have done. I still question some of the things she says or where she is when she is gone. I also understand the hope you have that what she is telling you is the truth and how you debate all these things in your mind.
But the fact is that a man is traveling a long way to meet her. She has said that sex is not out of the question and you have seen for yourself the erotic emails and texts and all the phone calls. To me she is not hiding it she is putting it right out there for you to see.
I am sorry for that. I am sorry she is doing this to you but you must do what is best for you and to he11 with her IMHO. You deserve better than how she is treating you and at this point you deserve better than her.
Sorry for being blunt but I feel you are in a tail spin and you are allowing her to control the sitch and I think that the ball is in your court as someone stated above.
