We were married for 5 years (almost 6). We lived together for 5 before we were married. She is not disabled, but she really has no work experience and the kids are 2 and 4, so my lawyer has told me that since I make a good living, she will argue that I should effectively support her living at home with the kids. The alimony will hopefully only last 3 years (hopefully). The truth is I want to give her the money anyways as it is going to my kids. I'm just venting some of my darker stupid stuff here.
I think what it comes down to is I no longer want to bust this divorce. I think that my wife is a selfish person who has blamed me for her every failing, and for not being a superhero who could fix everything in her life. And now she has left me for another man. As bad as divorce is, I think it is time for me to accept it and to move on with my life.
I don't think I will be coming around anymore. So thank you all for the great advice and for the support. I really wish that you all find the happiness you deserve. None of us are perfect, but I think just the fact that we cared enough to come here, to look in the mirror and to want to make ourselves better people is something we should get credit for. I know I am fortunate to have found this place, and I wish you all the happy marriages you deserve.
