Trying to detach from the madness!

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Took a big step last night. I went to stepdaughter's graduation. I got there right as it was starting. Exh was texting and then calling me as I was pulling in. He wanted me to sit with them. Not me, baby! I just said baby and I were going to stand by the door as I knew she wasn't going to be cooperative for 2 hours. He got sorta pissy but I held my ground. Soon everyone with a small child was huddled by the door.

We made it about an hour and baby had enough of being quiet and confined. We left.

Later last night he asked why we left. I have a 14 month old! Did he really think she was going to make that?

I know its moments like this that make exh feel like crap. Watching all the other intact families around him. He started texting last night and either he was drinking or feeling down. I could just tell.

He was writing on his fb that he is going to get a part time job as a maintenance man at the high school so he can watch his daughter. The one who has to be forced to spend time with him? Maybe thats why he is sad....his other kids that he has blown it with are older. He has baby and thats not going well either.

Tomorrow is my daughters high school graduation. Its a visit day so I am going to offer he come today instead. This is the first time I have had to switch or cancel a visit in a year.