Well, we can't see into the futre, so the best you can do is prepare for it and try to make it what you want. My plan now is to be more like the girl I was a few years back. I've known for a while H would probably like that, but oddly only recently have a I realized, I would like it too. I loved that girl. She packed her car and all her crap and just moved to Florida....didn't know a soul in this town but did it anyways for a new job opportunity. It was an adventure. I think you and I both need to lighten up. So let's do it.