My situation #9

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nds I'm banking on anyone who looks at this will draw the same conclusion as you. We are on the track to do a psychological analysis to determine what is best for the children. It's a big process of doing psychological and other observations to determine what the custody time should be.

She constantly leaves the kids with me as she goes off and does her own thing. So she's a walking contradiction. I love being with my kids and taking care of them - it gives me more opportunity to spend more time with them.

My W is a very intelligent woman but she is in that fog because of her drinking and the whole WAW thing. We got into a discussion where I told her she was so unforgiving toward me. I also told her she is only staring at anything she can perceive as a fault of mine etc... Of course she hit me back with her negativity but the funny thing is this, I could see the doubt rise inside of her. Of course by this morning she had rationalized and overrode the doubt (or so it seemed). As usual I can see it was a futile attempt to rationalize with an irrational person.

I have gotten very detached and fully accept the direction we are heading in. I keep just riding the direction she keeps moving in even all the switch-ups she has thrown in. I have seen the less I try to control anything concerning her and the sitch the more things seem to be arising and apparently going positive for me (I say apparently because I can't predict what anything means and I'm trying to keep in mind all things are neutral and it's our assigning it good and bad that make it so. Sometimes things I label as good actually turn out bad, and vice versa). It's a fascinating process to watch.

I'm doing well. Continue to find happiness inside of this chaos and am grateful for the things I do have. I still have my moments, but as time progresses they are less intense and last for a lot shorter period of time.

I'm gonna go take a look at your sitch.

Also I went kayaking on Sunday and we ended up paddling 6 miles. There were 20 people and I had a good time and met some nice people. I'm continuing to GAL and build a life for myself.

Thanks for popping by.