Why not?

[aliveandkicking]

Lucky, thanks again. I'm ok.

I stopped typing cuz h came in.

I really need to chill the f out.

I've run this all in my mind so many times. He comes back and we're soo separate and it hurts. With a little time, we sort of come closer.

I'm ok with today. I saw him again and I was fine. Tonights my night out. I'm in a good mood.

I can pretty much bet that he's scr*wing around and it hurts but it is almost beside the point.

When he said that today about me accepting this, I got a little chuckle watching his arrogance. There is no easy way out of this.

I want to get the focus back on me. I'm alright.

On my iPhone. Gonna go meet a friend.

[LG nm12]

Oh, good. I hope you have a FABULOUS, not peaceful, evening! Don't get sloppy drunk, though -- it never works out well. (haha)

[aliveandkicking]

Stuck, I don't really regret it either. However, this is our pattern and I can see why he doesn't like himself when he's around me.

I have to find a way to get centered and practical and stop seeing him as my partner in this. Sometimes I feel I can just say, ok, we are not right for eachother, let's move on as friends. The trouble is accepting his choices and that for whatever reasons, our marriage is not on his radar.

I need to focus on me so starting tomorrow morning (I want a little more of my crack here tonight) I'm going 24 hours without talking about h here. Whenever I do that,
things get better.

[aliveandkicking]

Oh, good. I hope you have a FABULOUS, not peaceful, evening! Don't get sloppy drunk, though -- it never works out well. (haha)

How about fabulous and peaceful? I'm such a lightweight.

[LG nm12]

Sure.... Of course! But, I'm hoping you find a way to laugh tonight. Laughter=FUN, Serene and calm=peaceful. I think you need some laughter...

Wish I had a good joke for you.

[MrBond]

Well have fun tonight. I wouldn't worry about overindulging too much. If you do get sick, you could go home and "literally" let it all out over your H!

[aliveandkicking]

Well have fun tonight. I wouldn't worry about overindulging too much. If you do get sick, you could go home and "literally" let it all out over your H!

Awesome visual. LOL.

[AlexEN]

Well have fun tonight. I wouldn't worry about overindulging too much. If you do get sick, you could go home and "literally" let it all out over your H!

Stuck,

The visual just makes it so darn tempting to wanna try...

Reminds me of Animal House... "You didn't throw up in front of Dean Wermer, you threw up ON Dean Wermer"...

-AlexEN

[antlers]

Thanks Antlers.

A lump of coal is turned into a diamond over time, with pressure! Lots of time and pressure!

So, he's the lump of coal I presume? Pressure, what kind of pressure? I know it is not meant to be taken literally but I'd like you to extrapolate if you can. Maybe life will scrape off those layers and reveal a diamond but perhaps not in my time-frame.

aliveandkicking...I didn't say 'he' was the one turning into a diamond!

"Self-validating (love yourself) is the armor. You can't hurt me if I'm not afraid of you. This is the work we all must do and is required to have an authentic journey.
Two warriors doing battle toe to toe realise that neither one will win. The stronger, wiser and more confident one will drop his shield first and offer his hand in peace. That gesture speaks volumes. Lead on." - Coach

Is that GOLD...or what?

LOL. I'm the lump of coal...

aliveandkicking...you're the diamond!

[jaguilar]

I hope you had fun tonight. Beats working and stuck in a rain storm in Texas in June. Be safe!!!