Stuck, I don't really regret it either. However, this is our pattern and I can see why he doesn't like himself when he's around me.
I have to find a way to get centered and practical and stop seeing him as my partner in this. Sometimes I feel I can just say, ok, we are not right for eachother, let's move on as friends. The trouble is accepting his choices and that for whatever reasons, our marriage is not on his radar.
I need to focus on me so starting tomorrow morning (I want a little more of my crack here tonight) I'm going 24 hours without talking about h here. Whenever I do that, things get better.
