Nothing wrong with saying how you feel. You have to get your anger out. Let it out - cry, use your support network, vent here, exercise, scream, ....... whatever it takes. It's normal what you did. I screwed up bunches of times likethat in my sitch. Let it out so you can handle it. Cheers Coach
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
