I know I'm a little tired today - I was watching my 6mo nephew in addition to my DD. I haven't really had much to eat, and my DD is getting sick again. She's really whiny today and I'm feeling really impatient.
Plus H is out furniture shopping for his new place. Nothing big, just a bed and a couch so that his place isn't totally empty - but it still stings. Like I can't actually believe he is doing this to me, no matter how temporary he calls it.
I'm making the decision to formula-feed the next baby - H is completely against this but I just want my body back at this point. I absolutely HATE that I am completely resenting this pregnancy. My mom was talking to me today about how excited she is to see if this baby looks like our first, if she has dark or blonde hair, etc. - and I just don't care anymore. I feel so sad about that. I know H will be just as in love with this one as he was with DD when she was born, but I'm afraid I just won't care then either. I'll be stuck at home with all of the work of two kids, 24 hours a day, and H can come and go as he wishes.
Me - 30, H - 32 T - 10, M - 6, D - 1 DD#1 - 4, DD#2 - 2 on/off OW 4/09 - sometime Summer 2010 (Told me about OW 4/10) Separated 6/11/09, divorced 8/4/10, trying again 9/2011
