d-day coming soon - help !

[misshim]

Thanks Grace, I agree with you. I can convince my head to do that but my heart is a different story. I'm trying to think of something D4 and I can do tonight. I handle things better when I go and pick her up from his parents house. I can take her and go because it seems like when he drops her off he stays at the house. Eats my food and sleeps in chair.

Boy, how foolish I have been. I see it here in the things I post and when I read other posts. But then when it comes down to him being there, I enjoy our small talks and then I get sucked into the spiral.

I have given up the dream that he wants to come home to stay. The reality is he likes to come & visit when he's not busy going out to the bars or wherever. But if I truly needed him for something I'm sure he would tell me he's "busy"

I am going to pick up my D4 from his parents. Even though we will just go home and play ball at least he isn't there. I don't have it in me to tell him to leave when he drops her off but at least I could pick her up and not worry about the whole thing of him staying at our house.

Deep Breath...... I have to stay strong