WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 10

[confusedinpa]

She tried to tell me but I didn't understand what the problem was. All last year when we went to marriage counseling together, I would tell her I loved her, I was happy and didn't know what the problem was. She would then say either she knew she loved me but didn't feel it or she didn't think I was happy. I told her I didn't understand what she was trying to say and we never got on the same page. This went on for a year. Until she dropped the bomb

Since then we switched counselors and I did my 180 right up to when she left. That's when she would say she sees the physical changes and feels that I'm such a better person but still didn't feel "that she could love me like a wife should".

It hurts that is the finality of this. I continue to go to therapy, but now it feels like its more grief counseling and working on forgiving myself

I know I need to keep working on myself and Dark can help protect myself emotionally.

Any suggestions on what may have worked for you?