VENT!! To people who actually understand the ups and downs of this crazy train.
My life is not bad. I keep moving along.I have learned to live
happily for the most part with this handicap. Oh, guess what??
IM NOT DIVORCED YET!!!! WE had a final court date on June
24th(that is the day he left 4 yrs ago) but it had to be moved
for a more important trial to July 22nd. Funny, its like we
are not meant to be divorced..It's only been almost 5 yrs.
On the H front: Well since my last post back in March, H is
still acting like his hormones are out of whack. There was a
bit of silence after that last episode. THen on Easter, he
called. WE were away he was questioning D8 where and who we
went with. H was still a bit quiet after that. In May, H called
me twice around 3 in the morning to ask me something about D8.
I found that odd but then realized he must have been thinking
about me( Why wouldn't he be :)) He came one day to my
classroom and started hugging me and made advances. Saying if
we had sex we would feel better about each other. And all the
anger would be gone. Umm, I didn't take him up on his offer.
So the following week , I had a friend at my house. He didnt
recognize the car. Normally he just has D8 walk up. But this
time he got out of the car. But instead H came up. Asked me to step outside. Talked to me about D8..asked who was
here..grabbed me..tried kissing and grabbing me. I told him no
and it wasn't appropiate. H then asked me......Why are you
being this way? WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU???? I was floored. I told
him nothing. Then he said he wanted to say hi to the dogs
inside and see D8's room. He basically was looking for the
person in my house. I told him I was busy and had to go. He got
irritated and said he was mad because I was telling him he had
to go. I was busy!
So an hour later he calls asking about my sister(who he hates) and trying to have a conversation. I cut it short because I had a friend over . He didnt like that.He hung up.To be continued.....
