d-day coming soon - help !

[misshim]

S,

Thanks for checking in. I have asked the Lord to help me to give me strength thru all of this. Also to give my H stength to fight his own demons.

Getting the strength seems to be getting harder, especially when I have to call the lawyer today. I just wish I could wake up from this bad dream. The nightmares have started again and it really is hard to stay focused.

H will be dropping off our D4 tonight after daycare and I really don't want to see him. He always acts like he's great and nothing is wrong. B*** crap, there is alot wrong. Our world has and will continue to be turned upside down, for our D4, him and I. I only hope he can find a way to get thru this.

Who knows maybe the Car he bought for his stripper friend will show up in my garage someday. Not really, but I did tell him, she doesn't deserve it (I found out from someone that knows her that she does this to alot of men, imagine that). But of course I know that will be his issue for the next 5 years.

I know I need to GAL. Maybe when this is over I'll find the way. Even though I love him so much, I'd like to tell him to go to H*** for doing this to all of us.

Need prayers please !!!!!!!