Fire's burning out...just smoldering

[blindsided1]

D party...definitely still on. I just keep reminding myself that it's just a piece of paper. It's just a piece of paper. H took K last night to get her 1 year Birthday pictures. He has left me in such a state of debt that I can't even afford to get those done for her. It's sad, I've been sick for weeks. Everyone keeps begging me to go to the doctor and get antibiotics. The sad part is....and I hate admitting it...but, I can't even afford the $40 co-pay until I get paid on Monday.....That is how broke he left us...Me! But, he can buy toys, tattoos, have a $3000 house rent, go on vacation and afford to NOT work for 6 months. Must be nice to have a sugar mama. And, when he does work, he doesn't help support his daughter other than pay 1/2 the daycare. I have filed the paperwork with the DCSS and I am now just waiting for them to call to set up an appointment. I don't feel bad about it anymore...especially when I watch him spending what should be K's money. The one thing that I am NOT looking forward to is the fact that he is going to be a total jerk and mean mean mean when he finds out that they are going to garnish. And, right now, we are actually getting along. Although most of his "niceness" comes in the form of sexual inuendos and advances. Well, the next week will be busy. But, I am going to make K's birthday the best birthday it can be. H is throwing some kind of party for her from 2-4 on Sunday and it will be all of OW's friends and family because my H doesn't have any friends. What kind of party goes from 2-4? I'm sure it's because OW has to work Sat night graveyard, so she wants to sleep in when she gets off at 5am. Then she has to go back to work at 5pm so, I'm glad she could "fit" my daughter's birthday into her very busy busy schedule.