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[mishka422]

I'm trying, really I am. Thank you all for the encouragement.

The realization hit me last night when I got an email that made me start examining how I interact with strangers. There is an obvious disconnect and I'm not sure how to get around that. Fear has to be the WORST four letter word in the English language. We live by fear, we die by fear. How could there be a curse word with more power than that? Hmmmm.......

Talking to CG is not the same as talking to a potential 'date'. There is no potential for anything more than the friendship I have with CG so there is no anxiety. Where there is any potential I freeze and stammer and become a total ball of nerves. It makes no sense to me, but it's something I'll need to deal with over time. That's why I realized I have no business trying to meet new people right now. I have too many underlying fears that need to be examined and put away.

Working....working.....working.