While I don't know what he wants to talk about, I realized last night that I absolutely have to hear what he wants to say. If we eventually reconcile, I have to listen, validate and be strong. If we never reconcile, hearing what's on his mind is also important for my recovery and moving on as necessary. Either way, he wants to talk so I will listen.
Thanks, Stuck, for the great suggestions on the meeting. A crazy homeless guy... I love that! If I were talking with one, I'd nod my head, listen but not argue b/c it wouldn't do any good. I'll imagine that tonight along with the mother wolf.
I am taking control over my reality. I'm going to finish raising my teenagers, be good to myself, have fun, be responsible, and end up better than ever. 25 wrote here many pages ago that I need to be the author of my life. How do I want to write the next chapter? What do I want to say about tonight's meeting... it's certainly not that I sobbed the entire time, or got angry or defensive. Hopefully, I'll go into it with a sense of peace, no fear, and know that God is walking in the door with me and will give me the strength I need to listen to my husband and be real.
