Okay.....lots of things to reply to very early in the morning in Midwestern Regional Airport, with a rather tiny iPhone virtual keypad, so please forgive the misspellings.
1. @everyone - remember, you're coming into this conversation (which was via email, btw) 21 or so years in. Herself & I have discussed her feelings of unlovability many times over the years and, as you will see when I can tell the rest of the rest of the story when this nightmare of a hop ends and I can access the "real" internet, when E-convo turned into Face-2-Face convo, I didn't leave it hanging.
2. Upshot of F2F convo is that WAW is scared and feels alone. Told her she doesn't have 2 feel alone - I'll be here if she needs me. A lot of "that's ridiculous" and "you can't" and "everyone would tell you you're crazy" and "I couldn't" hand-waving to which I essentially replied that (a) I would consider it a favor if she reached out to me, (b) I don't care what "everyone" would say (by which I assume she meant the members of Team SP in the world), and (c) it does me no good and our kids no good for WAW to be lonely and sad, so anything I might do to alleviate some of that is really just selfishness on my part. So no matter the sitch, my door isn't closed though she's walking away.
3. @Gypsy(?)(can't scroll back up) - I'm not really doing HooDoo lol! Just (mis)appropriating the ideas.
4. Yesterday WAW started moving into her new home - locksmith, cable guy, a couple pcs of furniture. She asked me to see it, and I agreed. As she showed me around she cried a bit. Brought in some lunch from down the street, and as we ate she suggested / sort-of asked if I might come over for dinner once in a while when all is said and done, to which I was cautious-but-not-closed-off. And she cried a bit more, so I gave her a hug and told her it will be okay, one way or the other. She started bagging on herself - I'm such a piece of sh*t, I don't even know what I'm doing anymore. She feels "invisible" and generally hates her life. Validated, asked her not to demean herself - we're all struggling, we all have a hard fight (@Greek!), we'll just work it 1 day @ a time. I won't let you fall too far, so if you need a hand you can reach out and one will be there.
Had to leave, thanked her for the lunch, told her I'd see her before I left.
@airport, I texted her: "Nice 2 see ur new home. It will be ok. As much as u want or need I will meet u 1/2-way whenever I can.". And I turned off the phone.
When I arrived at Midwestern Regional Airport a reply text was waiting: "Ur a good man. I dont no what my problem is. Must be midlife crisis. But its a crisis definitely."
