Thanks Kat, you have made a good point... he needs reassurance too. Things are starting to leak out from him.. he seems to be under the assumption/fear(?) that I had someone else whilst we were apart !!!!!!
Last night he came over and fixed my car radio, fixed my bike, did some plumbing and took the front of my bath to mend something and fixed a light fitting in the hallway...(Acts of service, lovely, but still no goddamn flowers!!) I was appreciative but a bit quiet, he kept asking if I was ok and kissing me, but I was trying to find a way to say, its great you are doing all this, but its too late, I cant afford to live here anymore! But I couldnt say it and he wrongly interpreted my demeanour as not comfortable with what he was doing.
I forgot to say he asked me at the weekend if I wanted to be his gf.. did I want us to be together (he didnt add "again") and could he be my bf? I said yes of course.. but he suddenly said last night.. I DID ask you to be my gf the other night.. all insecureish, which surprised me! I didnt think HE would feel insecure. Its been nearly 4 weeks and I can see issues starting to emerge, after the initial excitement of being back together.
He has a bad rash which he assumes is exzcema and I have mouth ulcers... so I finally bravely asked him...
..are you worried about that rash?.. could you go get checked out? ..I mean.. generally, checked out..??
He was very good about it and said, yes, yes, of course, I'm more than happy to do that, do I go to the GP for that? I told him to look up GUI clinics in the phonebook. He kept saying calmly and looking quite serious, yes, of course I will..I asked if he minded me asking him to and he said, no, not at all..I told him it had been difficult to ask, I am sure everything is fine.. or perhaps I could get checked after him. He looked worried and joked.. what have you been up to? I said deadpan.. I havent been up to anything at all.. and he looked very guilty and said, OH sorry, sorry, I shouldnt make a joke like that and hugged me alot. I absolutely need to know that she didnt give him anything, to help draw a line under it.
His Mum phoned Monday night after we got home.. she DIDNT MENTION me at all, or me and him staying with her or being back together. Nothing. Thats astounding she has made no reference to it and I want to talk to him about that.. its so shocking she would say nothing after such a big seachange in his life, its absolutely indicative of the way he has been bought up and why he is the way he is.
