I had an interesting day...My good friend who I haven't seen in 5 years came over for a visit. It was so great to see her...and she was a big part of the beginning part of my R with H. We lived next door to each other and had kids at the same time...blah blah blah. Anyway, we were just here at my house and catching up and H stopped by. He had called 2x and I ignored. He never stops by anymore like that so it was weird and H saw our friend and was really surprised, pleasantly of course. We all caught up. H left to pick up the kids...my friend left and I went to work. H called to tell me they got new fish for their tank and that he wants to buy the girls a chinchilla. But it is too much $$ right now. That was it. Then he called awhile later to see when he could drop the kids off, and I said I would be home in a little bit. After I got home he called to see if I was home yet. I was like DANG, why are you in such a hurry to drop them off and asked him if he had plans. He was gonna go watch the game but said he wasn't in a real hurry about it. So he came to drop them off and we talked for a little bit. I expected him to leave quickly and he didn't. He hugged me and started to put the moves on...and I denied. At first. Then it got to be irresistable and I caved. Ugh! He definately noticed my "smokin' hot"-ness...and I guess it backfired on me because I had no willpower. He said I looked so pretty. I know, I am a sucker!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Anyway...i expected him to leave right away after too and he didn't. He asked me if I had thought about what I was going to do as far as the move goes...I said I didn't know and I had a little more time with the lease not being up till Aug. 1st now. He said ok. I told him I was considering staying and that I didn't want him to think I was trying to pressure him, but that it was a hard decision for me...(I started to tear up and was trying REALLY hard not to)...because I wanted him to know that if I stay in the area it is because I have a life here and it is not because I am expecting anything from him. He said he never would think that I would expect anything...and that he wanted us to stay so the kids could be close to him, stay at the same school and so that I would be close to him too. He also said "well, wither way no matter what happens with us", that we could just wait and when he transfers we could all transfer closer to our hometown. It was good I guess, but he never actually said that he as considering moving back TOGETHER. He mentioned me moving out of current house again too...because we can't afford both rents. (DUH!!!???) So...there was positive and negative in there. At this point I had enough of R talk and didn't want to get too deep into it so I changed the subject and lightened it up. We talked about the kids...laughed, and it was great. Then I told him that I was thinking about taking the girls to a church here in town and asked him if he minded. (we always talk about going but never do. I am investing in faith right now and want to make this change for the better for myself and the girls). Anyway, I guess this was the best part about the day for me because he said he would like to go with us. It was crazy. I said ok...and we talked a little more and then he left. I am hoping it was not a fluke...that we are getting somewhere. KNOCK ON WOOD!!!!! And you better believe I will be praying tonight!!!!! I am not pulling any rods before I know the fish are on!!!
