A lot of the things you've said have been running through my head too.
Guarded with my feelings? Maybe. Sometimes it feels better not to go there. Not to face it. I feel a little rejected right now. This weekend I felt a little numb at times, not just from lack of sleep, but also just from having these feelings. It was difficult to work up that mojo as Smiley might say. It was still good family time, I just felt a little out of it at times.
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Kids soccer game today. W and I had just a little convo. I mentioned something about dr. and she cut me off rudely as in - we can't talk about that here (no one was in ear shot). Didn't talk about much else. Just some house and bill matters. She spoke a little about BFF with another friend at the field and how little they talk despite at least officially living in the same house.
On the way out she said bye, nicely, then "If you have things you want to talk about then you can call me."
So, yes, perhaps I've been too distant. I need to figure out why. Is it because I'm hurt? Angry? Maybe I need the break? Don't know. Seems like I just need to talk with her more.
"My actions are my only true belongings. I cannot escape the consequences of my actions. My actions are the ground upon which I stand." Thich Nhat Hanh
