Today was one of those days where I was feeling very lonely and alone. Tomorrow I will make it a better day. Some days I think I'm getting used to the separation, and then other days it hurts as much as the day he left.
"You and H are connected. You both share the same feelings. Your thoughts become your reality, his thoughts become his reality."
Could you or anyone elaborate on that statement? To me, it means that we've shared the deepest of human emotions-love. But now that we're apart, we naturally become self-reflective. Our memories of each other become an overwhelmingly massive kaleidoscope of conflicting emotions. Sooner or later, the strongest memories become our reality, and those strongest memories of our relationship mold our current thoughts of each other. I think, though, that over time one's memories can become distorted.
Or maybe we really do become our thoughts, like Murphy's Law.
Right now I think anger is fogging my H thoughts. Maybe we just didn't understand each other's behaviors. But I think that one can love completely without complete understanding. But loving someone, to me, means complete acceptance. I have to ask myself, "was I completely accepting of my H, flaws and all?" In turn, "was he completely accepting of me?"
What is anybody's else's view on this strongest of human connections we call love? And why is it that humans often want what we can't have?
Me 40 WAH 43 T 4 years M 9 1/2 months stepson 9 H left 3 weeks ago
